I almost didn't write this post since I don't even think many people read this blog. But I don't like it when people just disappear so I figured I would explain my absence. I am going through some hard times financially. In two days I will be out of my apartment with nowhere to go. I am going to lose everything I own, including my cats. I couldn't give less of a shit about my stuff, but losing my cats is more than I can bear. They are really my only family. I'm the only human they've ever known.
Not having any emotional support has made this burden very heavy. The only comfort I get is from my cats who can tell something is wrong. They're comforting me, and I totally screwed up their lives.
I won't be blogging anymore after this. I've lost my home before, and have managed to bounce back, but never have I suffered a loss like this.
Knowing that I am about to lose everything, my adoptive dad sent me a ire and brimstone Email letting me know that because I don't share his religious views, as in Christ is my savior, or whatever it is I'm supposed to believe that when I die i will be in a place where I will experience loneliness and sadness and misery like I've never known, and there will be no comfort for me. I let him know that I'm already living with that loneliness and sadness. Everything he described is pretty much my life so I let him know that he and his wife prepared me for it, and I'm not scared. Christians are so hilarious, because why would you say that to someone who is about to lose everything? Why? I am hurting, I am in pain like I've never known.
Anyway, anyone who has read this blog, thank you. I wish it could have been so much more.
