Ever since moving back to Seattle, I've really stepped up my health game, and I haven't really eaten my feelings in awhile. Quite the opposite actually, I've been feeling, and dealing with my feelings. I'm so behind, I'm dealing with feelings from way long ago. And I'm learning things about myself, and facing truths, and this time I am really trying to change, I'm not phoning it in. And I'm not being half assed, I'm working hard. I'm proud to say that while I may still be a mess, things really are happening. I recently bought two pints of a new vegan ice cream. I mean, vegan Chunky Monkey, come on. So, I wanted to try these two flavors for my vegan blog. I was pretty scared, thinking I could easily lose control. But, when I tried the chunky monkey, I put a small amount in a bowl, and I enjoyed the hell out of it. It satisfied my sweet tooth, and I genuinely did not need or want more. I felt satisfied! It was amazing. Ice cream can be my friend again. I've done the same thing with the second flavor. I really enjoyed the flavor of both ice creams so much more than just mindlessly shoveling it in my face until the pint is gone. Any enjoyment of the treat is ruined by the feelings of self loathing, not to mention the sick feeling in your stomach.
A nice treat! |
It feels so incredibly freeing. Going through the process and feeling your emotions is so much easier and less painful than the things I've done to mask, or shove down my feelings.
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